After we lost my mom it felt pointless to prattle on about indie music, sneakers, code or any of the other topics I have covered since I started blogging. I have been adjusting to life without my mom and we’re making progress, I think. I am typing cautiously because I know that I have a tendency to reveal too much about myself at times, especially when I consider the fact that most people are not interested in learning as much about me as I am willing to divulge. I am very well aware of my faults when interacting with friends, co-workers or the passerby. I have an answer for everything. E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G. Vince suggests this might be a guy thing, but I feel it is my way of trying to hold on to a connection with those around me, even when I know I’m not an expert on anything. I also think it’s rooted in my insecurities about not being smart enough, cultured, well-read etc…

Amy and I are opposites in so many ways. If she was standing over my shoulder right now, she might remark ‘Are you sure you want to write that?’, but then she would give a small word of encouragement and tell me to go with it. I am very honest when I speak, hell maybe even rude depending on who you talk to. I often times analyze my conversations with people an hour later and think ‘Wow, could have left that detail out’ or ‘Damn, I hope they didn’t take that the way it sounded’. While I vent quite often, I do to try and take a more lighthearted approach to life. I’ve learned to joke even when my professional or personal life is in shambles. I have learned to laugh at myself, and oh my god, there is a lot to laugh at. One other thing I’ll mention (although there are a lot of ‘imperfections’ I’m leaving out) is that I am a snob. I am. I like my music, my food, my sneakers. How could anyone vote for Bush. That club, song, t-shirt, brand of cigar, car or haircut is totally lame. Although I don’t like to think of myself as a snob, I am very picky about what I do, wear, listen to, read or watch. And when I happen to enjoy something that is more mainstream or commercial, It’s ok because I realize the true genius in that artist and the public just thinks he/she/they are cute.

With all of that said, I don’t feel I’ve ever felt above someone. I put on my pants 2 legs at a time like everyone else. I don’t know exactly what I just wrote, but I feel a bit better. End of rant.

What have I been doing lately? Working, skateboarding, hanging with friends, livin’ with Amy and Elliot and playing my guitar (Karolina, Dave and I have a regular practice/jam session). I will say that music becomes an even more important part of my life over the last year or so. My favorite bands/musician of the moment are Beck, Destroyer and without a doubt, Fleet Foxes. Here’s a video from the Pitchfork Music Festival of Fleet Foxes performing English House. It’s not my favorite song off of the new album, but still a keeper.